Unexpected race

Sometimes you run out of luck, that’s what Raikkonen said following his first DNF since Germany 2009. People were talking about how he was running smooth, finishing all races since his comeback last year, how he broke the records of finishing in points for 27 consecutive races, and here’s me feeling deeply sorry for him not only because of the impressive record but the fact that he dropped to fourth in the WDC because of a failure brakes. He was pretty good on qualifying too bad he ran out of time, he could’ve been on the front row.

Vettel did great at overtaking Hamilton on the first lap and extending the gap between, Alonso was amazing (9th to 2nd), Button was seriously a surprise when he went to the front row not long after the green light. After seeing no Lotus car on the front row, I searched for Romain & Kimi to find them dropped on 9th & 10th, oh NO! but I was relieved they were ok. After 4 laps I heard the commentators talking about Kimi’s car, something’s not right with his brake… oh come on. It was only the first 4 laps and he had problems? why. Everyone seemed to questioned if Kimi would be able to finish the race and I raged. I couldn’t even screamed when I saw him overtook several cars, I was just hoping he can finish the race. After 25 laps, Kimi found himself behind Massa, he hunt him down and tried to overtook on every corner but then he went wide and felt his brakes failed. I couldn’t believe my eyes, my hands covered half of my face, tried hard not to scream as I watched how Kimi turned and went to the box. The Lotus team pulled the Lotus E21 into the garage, Kimi got out of his seat, approached Mark Slade (his engineer), had a little talk (Mark looked frustrated, guilty and sad) and finally he disappeared inside the garage. That’s when I realized Kimi was out of the race. DNF. Rai – Out.


Not long after Kimi out suddenly I saw a Force India out, turned out it was Paul di Resta, hit by Maldonado. Not fun, at all. Paul had a great qualifying on Saturday 😦 I watched the last 19 laps with no excitement, was busy thinking how would this race affect my mood.

Speaking as a fan of Raikkonen, the race was far from what I expected (after waiting patiently for almost a month). Spa-Francorchamps is a favorite track to all the drivers especially to the Iceman, as we all know he’s the only driver on the grid to have more than 2 wins at Spa. I was reading the statistics and realized that Kimi always finish the race on the podium and when he failed to finish it means DNF, so it’s either podium or DNF for Kimi at Spa. It creeped me out.

So, congratulations to Vettel for winning and extending his lead on the championship. This is not the end but Kimi & Lotus will have to work really hard. Let’s see what happens..


Looking forward to Monza,




Have I told you lately

that I’m tired ? Tired of the same thing all over again… Tired of being positive when other people can only tell you the negative sides… Tired of being strong and happy when I’m not… I tried hard to understand why things happened but to be honest today I lost it. I never wanted to hate people, anyone, even those who hurt me, I’m not the kind of person to confront everything in public – I like to keep it to myself – at least I’m the only one who will get hurt.

credit to me, yep.

credit to me, yep.

I can’t believe how I got through the past 5 tough years, believe me there were so much going on I really wanna forget almost everything. I’m a careless ignorant person with a tendency to forget things within hours so it should be easy for me to trash my shitty memories but it’s not as easy as I thought it would be. This is what makes me furious, I forget things easily but there are some things I can’t forget even if I want to. ugh why. why. WHY. WHY. 

Things at home, things at work, things with my family, things with myself, things with my other close ones.. yeah, this year marks the first step of numerous changes in my life. I remember wrote about how I should be strong to face the changes at the beginning of the year… easy to write, hard to do, even harder to get through.

So yes I lost it today, lost my patience, lost my confidence, lost sight of what I can achieve ahead, lost a little bit of me. Things are harder when you think you know about them. Thing will get better but for now I’m going to take in all the feelings & listen to some good music below,

When you leave – Chantal Chamberland

Paradise (Peponi) – Coldplay cover by The Piano Boys ft. Alex Boye

I won’t give up – Jason Mraz cover by Peter Hollens

Best thing I never had – Beyonce

Time After Time – cover by The Vazquez Sounds

The Nearness of you – Norah Jones

Painter Song – Norah Jones

Mas Que Amor – Il Volo

Try listening to them and go cry your heart out to loosen up so you feel a bit better,



end of 1st half season

originally written on Aug 8th, published today

It’s summer break! Can’t believe we’re here already the first half season is over, Vettel still lead the championship with Kimi & Alonso behind. Watching F1 is like planning my life in a calendar, F1 calendar to be exact. I always try to watch every race but sometimes I can’t mess my other schedule. I recall some of my memories based on the races I watched, when Kimi left F1 I was sad… Kimi went rallying but I didn’t watch rally, as time goes by I watched no race at all… I focused on completing my studies, those days are a bit blurry because I tend to forget days, months, or even years of my life that I hated more than I should.

and then BAM! Kimi did an amazing comeback last year, showed the world he did not lost any skill or whatever, he even came back stronger, he entertained the viewers (and even commentators), won a race with a fantastic defense driving and of course finished third in WDC. Iceman is definitely back.

I realized how F1 affects my daily life memories. 2013 season is running great (I think) so far except for some things I’m not pleased with. Anyway this is so freakishly strange, I remember the races, the podiums, the dramas, the excitements of the 1st half  but I have no idea where my other days went to. I cried over the same thing all over again this month, met my high school friends every 2 months, got a pay raise, went crazy in every single race, planned a trip, canceling a trip (I’m still in the middle of a dilemma), excited for another trip (the one that I’m sure of), listened to Il Volo again, worried for Kimi WDC points (a bit pointless but well yeah), had lots of fun with my cousins, went for a bike instead of swimming, dealt with so many unpleasant people, laughed at everything… I have no idea how my first half went except that I’m getting older.

How do you keep track of your life actually? I tried doing the OhLife, went pretty great for the first weeks but I screwed up this month. Does anyone here doing the OhLife as well? 

Here’s to summer break,


it’s August

First thing I checked this morning was my wordpress stats.. It was quiet. yep, lately I’m giving all my attention to this little blog which is what I used to do with my old blog (sadly inactive). It’s funny to think that someone actually read what I write, basically my posts are my outlet when there’s no one I can talk to or it’s not something I can casually discuss with a friend.

credit to me

credit to me

no, not really a yay.

So here comes August , the month I’ve been waiting for the last 4 months with all the plans for holidays… It sounds fun except the fact that I only be out of town for almost 3 days but  I have no plans for the rest of my holidays and to make it worse there’s no F1 race until the end of August. I have to start writing my holiday-activity-list.. urgh, it sounds lifeless. Well, maybe I’ll go cycling… maybe I’ll cook something other than pasta… maybe I’ll make a mini studio… maybe I’ll take pictures of my minions… maybe I’ll cover a song… maybe I’ll paint something… or maybe I’ll just lie down in my bed, glued to my laptop while eating a bowl of Walls selection ice cream with Hershey’s kisses – that’s a good plan. Have a great summer break everyone!

I honestly can’t wait for next week,