that I’m tired ? Tired of the same thing all over again… Tired of being positive when other people can only tell you the negative sides… Tired of being strong and happy when I’m not… I tried hard to understand why things happened but to be honest today I lost it. I never wanted to hate people, anyone, even those who hurt me, I’m not the kind of person to confront everything in public – I like to keep it to myself – at least I’m the only one who will get hurt.
I can’t believe how I got through the past 5 tough years, believe me there were so much going on I really wanna forget almost everything. I’m a careless ignorant person with a tendency to forget things within hours so it should be easy for me to trash my shitty memories but it’s not as easy as I thought it would be. This is what makes me furious, I forget things easily but there are some things I can’t forget even if I want to. ugh why. why. WHY. WHY.
Things at home, things at work, things with my family, things with myself, things with my other close ones.. yeah, this year marks the first step of numerous changes in my life. I remember wrote about how I should be strong to face the changes at the beginning of the year… easy to write, hard to do, even harder to get through.
So yes I lost it today, lost my patience, lost my confidence, lost sight of what I can achieve ahead, lost a little bit of me. Things are harder when you think you know about them. Thing will get better but for now I’m going to take in all the feelings & listen to some good music below,
When you leave – Chantal Chamberland
Paradise (Peponi) – Coldplay cover by The Piano Boys ft. Alex Boye
I won’t give up – Jason Mraz cover by Peter Hollens
Best thing I never had – Beyonce
Time After Time – cover by The Vazquez Sounds
The Nearness of you – Norah Jones
Painter Song – Norah Jones
Mas Que Amor – Il Volo
Try listening to them and go cry your heart out to loosen up so you feel a bit better,